Requiem for a Dream of mine!

When I was a kid I used to dream that one fine day I will make my parents proud and give them everything that they deserve and even more! But as I grew up I didn’t made that effort which can make my childhood dreams come true! In other words I can say I was out of the track. 

Today when gals n guys of my age are making their parents proud and giving all that what I wanted to give my parents but couldn’t I feel ashamed of me! I do not worth such nice parents at all! 

Why god you gave my parents a child like me who is incapable of giving them the happiness they deserve.
I know parents never expect anything from us and they do everything because of their love towards us but isn’t it our duty to make them feel proud of us!

Please God help me to make my parents happy and proud by giving me one chance!!! I pray to you from the core of my heart if you want to punish me for all my wrong deeds then just do punish me! Not my parents!!!

Dilemma of My Mind

Confusion within Brain

Whenever I faced any interview one question was compulsorily asked everywhere and that is – “Tell me about yourself”. But I was completely blank at that time and speak up all rubbish like done my studies here, there and blah blah blah… But I never got any perfect answer to that question!!! Still today I am unaware of myself. The only thing I noticed within me is “Confusion”! I really find myself confused at every stage at every situation of my life… And this is because I am not clear about what I want to achieve in my life!

For an instance when I was in a stage of deciding my career after my 12^th standard as per my childhood dreams and parents wish I joined for medical coaching but trust me the whole one year along with my parents money I just wasted like anything on movies etc. then after all that I joined engineering which I never wanted to do… But still completed it anyhow… and then went to Bangalore in search of job and still unaware of which field to choose… Then 2 years passed away then I got my current job as a part time content writer and a full time SEO specialist in a SEO firm and I am really thankful to these guys because they showed me one direction to follow but still I am confused as I am preparing for other competitive exams too! This is just one situation many more are there!!!

Will I ever get my destined job? Or will always be in such confusion? I don’t know but today I am quite happy because at least I have a path and objective which I can follow up…